Funky FUNK.

I am in a FUNK.

The last time I felt this discontent I upped and moved to California. Ya, you all know how well that worked out! Anyways I'm not discontent with where I am location wise, just everything else lately. People are driving me crazy, last weekend when I went home was the only time in 2 weeks Ive felt normal. Ive just been easily irritated with people lately to the point of just secluding myself and not hanging out. lame I know. Ive also been super discontent with myself physically lately too. Ive always been very confident in myself and still am, but its wavering a little. So I'm trying to be good about eating and going to the gym. We shall see if that pulls me out of my funkiness.

Lets see I also feel like I finally figured my school shit out, but then that comes with a whole new set of funks. I decided I am going to do a Practical Nursing program in Portland to get my LPN, then I can be working while I finish and get my RN. One of the main problems is that it is a full time schedule during the DAY. Which means that I am going to have to get a new nights and weekends job... blahhh. I hate the thought of leaving the family I nanny for, but I always knew that if I was ever gonna finish school Id have to eventually go during the day. My problem is that I can always get a job in childcare, but who the hell needs a night and weekend nanny?? hmmm maybe Ill have to start stripping...

Shall I continue? My next funk is that I just found out that my roommate is moving out. Sooo on top of knowing that I'm going to be making way way way less money come fall, I have to potentially double what Ive been paying in rent and bills! Ive let everyone know that I need a roommate... and everyone's responses are "I cant, I'm saving money!" Well guess what, I'M TRYING TO SAVE MONEY TOO!!!!!! fuck fuck fuck this is a frustrating time!!!!

Anyways I'm really hoping that sometime soon everything will miraculously work out. Maybe I should start buying lottery tickets? Or call Julian the guy from Vegas and let him know I changed my mind and he can take care of me now?

Vegas is coming up, I'm gonna take a weekend and head up to Gig Harbor soon (Bre and Matt always cheer me up!), I'm gonna go home as much as I need to to feel sane, I'm gonna spend more time in La Center with my 2nd family and lastly I'm gonna make a long trip to New Mexico to visit my crazy Dottie. I hope all this combined can quickly make me ALL better! Anyways if anyone else has more ideas to cure my funkiness let me know! Or if you know anyone who needs a roommate? Or if you know anyway to make some quick cash that doesn't include the bunny ranch activities!!!! =)